Thoughts and Reflections

So last week started off with a hunting trip. It was a blast. Did not get to shoot anything but that is okay. However, God did something that I was not "expecting". During the weeks of prep before the trip, I had just had a small thought and prayer about the trip. I had memories of when we got to be of assistance to a gentleman years ago on a caribou hunt. We were able to assist him in getting his kill into his vehicle. It was quite the ordeal. Anyways, I was thinking back on that trip and had the thought/prayer, "God, it would be cool if nothing else we could be a help to someone on our trip". to be honest, I had forgotten about it up until we came across a man by the name of Greg who was in a really bad spot. I may have forgotten, but God did not. What a blessing it was to help him get his truck out of the situation he had put it in. As soon as we saw the truck, I was instantly reminded of what I had asked God to "do" (?) for me. We assisted him and he...

Sigh, I will not trouble you with the details..... Just know that I am human and still struggle with the mental frustrations of life. Of course the ramifications of past decisions are a struggle for me as well. I hate the fact that my past actions have caused people to "change" or look at me differently. You ever wish things could be like they were?............ 

You ever have one of those nights where sleep seems to evade you? I have too! Last night was different though. I fell asleep just fine. It was the waking up at 2AM in the midst of a battle that was different. Unbelievable how this can happen. Just so you know I am still human and struggle the same as you. Last night was one of those times where I let a personal "struggle" cause me grief. No it was not a sinful struggle. There is nothing wrong with the issue that I am having. It is however one that from time to time is used against me to cause me grief or attempt me to trip and fall. Last night I of course tried to handle it myself. Was failing of course so then I turned it over to God. Problem fixed? No, not really. I still hurt some because of this struggle, but God knows about it and cares for me. He can do what He wants with it. I am trusting in Him to give me the strenght to accept His answer. I have the answer I want for it, but it may not be what he wants. Ha...

So, I finished off my last post mentioning praying for others. How many did you uplift? Still just yourself? Did you assist in the lifting up of others? I will say this, it is interesting how God can put a thought in my heart and mind on one day and continues the theme even through the service Wednesday night. I whole heartedly agree that we need to move from being the selfish people we are to ones who "step out in faith" and lift up others. Is it easy? Well, we are battling with the flesh and it is easy to say no. But that is factoring out that fact that we are not in this alone. God wants us to be thinking of others and not self, therefore He will be right there with us during the fight. To be honest He wants it more than we do. IF we would lean on that fact, the fight would be "easier". I have not attained, but will work at it myself. So for today? Yeah, ups and downs as always. I found that if I allowed my focus to drift back to selfish things my day "a...

Labor day weekend. Took Monday off and now here it is Tuesday and I still feel like today is a Monday. Oh Well. It's interesting how you can be so selfish about things in your life. I believe that it is all a sign of just how Prideful we as humans really are. We spend so much of our time focussing on what we can get out of every situation. Now I am not saying that the things we are wanting are wrong or sinful. I am saying that the focus on ourselvs and what we get are contrary to what God teaches us in his Word. I am not any better than others out there. I struggle with the same faults as every one else. So yes, I am in it for myself as well sometimes. I am learning that it is causing more trouble than it is worse. What happens is you start to focus so much on how things are not going the way you want. Or you are not getting what you want, that you become very upset, angry, or depressed. I dunno, maybe I am a good example of what not to be or do because of wrong focus in my life...

Alright, I figured I would kick this off properly. Instead of trying to remember where I was at on my last post, I would start this one off with the greatest event ever to happen. The year is 2008, things for me seemed to by spiraling out of control. I was having problems at work, home, pretty much everywhere. The reasons for it though..... I had no idea. As was my custom for the past few years I had decided to once gain be a counselor or whatever was needed at Teen Camp. I really had been enjoying it because i got to see God make some changes in a teens life. Either in their changing of attitudes, convictions or salvation. To be honest I struggled right up to the first day of camp. As we headed out to Twin Bears, I was still not sure I wanted to be there (I really had no idea or strong opinion of why that was). Anyways, camp kicked off and I had a new cabin of boys to look after. It was different this year because the boys got the side of camp the girls normally did. If I remember c...