Thoughts and Reflections

I hope you read the link I posted in the last blog. If not, you can read it here The Prodigal Son As a saved person you are eternally secure in your salvation. However, because God has given us a free will to choose to follow after Him or take our own path many of us end up being a Prodigal son. As in the parable, we so many times decide that what we want is better than what God has for us. In essence, we ask God for what is ours and then head off on our own to enjoy our life as we see fit. Sure, for some time our life is great. We are enjoying the pleasures that we get from indulging in our fleshly desires. But as scripture says, there is pleasure in sin for a season. Sooner than you think, the joy is gone. There is nothing but regret, remorse, sorrow. The friends are gone. The carefree life is none existent. You now toil in your sin. You are a slave to the desires of your flesh. The sins you once "enjoyed" now control your every moment. As time passes, your mind begins...

I have a post I believe god wants me to put here. It's been a long time since I posted here. I am still alive and have been struggling recently. Recently as in the past few months. Lots of hurts have been caused. Plenty of bad decisions have been made. However, there is a parable that really pulls together what has been happening. It is really a turning point. It all comes down to choices. Good or bad we all make them. If you want a head start on where I am going or what my context will come from, read Luke 15:11-32. It is the parable of the prodigal son. Here is a link to the verses in case you do not own a Bible The Prodigal Son . I have come to cherish this "story" because it reflects so much of what I have done and what many others have done. I hope I can put it into one post and that it will be understandable. It will be coming from my heart and is humbling knowing that I am opening myself up. I pray that God can and will us it to help someone out there.....

So here I sit, now a member of the population with medical parts installed..... Ever since I was a teenager I have had random episodes of passing out, dizzy spells, and seeing stars. Recently, I had a very bad experience with a dizzy spell after a workout at the gym. It took me a good 30 minutes to get over it. This kicked off my wondrous adventure. I went to my normal doctor and explained everything to him that I have had. He thought it best to have me see a cardiologist. I made the appointment and explained the whole experience that is my life dealing with this issue to him. He looked at the EKG that they took and everything looked good. My blood pressure was a little elevated so he decided to run two "tests". The first was an echo of my heart and then a tilt-table test. This past Wednesday I had the echo done and everything looked good from what I was told. Of course I was thinking that it's all in my head or my diet maybe. Anyways, I went on with life and a...

Alright, To be honest I have been going threw a "dark time" in my walk. Nothing really that was not self inflicted. I was allowing things in my life to "blind" me to what God wanted from me. I was creating walls and turning my back on the only one who had the answers for me. In the times of trying to do what is right and following after what you believe is God's direction, I am amazed at how easily we can fall into sin. Thank God for eternal salvation. How often I would have to go Back and ask God to save me again. I am so glad that I can talk to Him and ask for help to over-come my faults and weaknesses. So this will actually be short..... I think..... Working on bus 101 has been a blessing. Being a leader for a group in RU has been a blessing and a challenge. I am just grateful that God has chosen to use me. Anyways, my bus route has been one of the biggest areas of attack in my walk. So I took over the route because I truly believe God was directing ...