April already????
God is good. That is about all I can really say. It sums up a lot of what has been happening in my life these first four months of the new year. I cannot believe how much He can change you in this amount of time.
I will be honest here, I am a sinner just like everyone else. What makes me different is that I am saved by the grace of God through the crucifiction, death, burial, and ressurection of Jesus Christ. The acceptance of that it was all for me is the "hope of my salvation". I have not attained anything..... yet. That is a future goal.
I am once again looking forward to church. I am enjoying being involved with RU (Reformers Unanimous) more and more. I dread having to go to the work place because there is no spiritual "safety" there. BUT God has control and right now He sees fit for me to be here. I have stumbled in my testimony because of my unruly flesh, but that is okay. God knows and is helping me.
Today was an interesting thought that He brought to my mind. I have heard that being timid or an introvert is a type of pride. Would not accept it till I realised what went through my mind in this area. I would not approach others but would get upset when they did not approach me..... in that I see the pride of thinking myself worthy of being approached but them unworthy of my approaching them. Disguised under the premiss of being "shy". Do I like groups of people I do not know? Do I like talking to people? The answer to these is really the same... not really. However, I do not like being "alone" or "left out". It is sad that we can take a "bad experience" in our past and let it affect us for so long. It only hurt me truthfully. This is one area that God has decided to work on in multiple ways and I am so greatful to Him for giving me the strenght and help I need..... DAILY.
Also, I have had a feeling that God has wanted me to step up my growth and start serving Him. Right off I thought of the bus ministry again, but had no peace about it. I asked God for direction and talked to my pastor. I am now serving as a greeter for RU.... talk about instantly out of my comfort zone!! But I have purposed in my heart to serve Him and He has been faithful to give me the confidence to do it. He has also seen fit to have me approached about my favorite principle...... I know where this heads but I am not afraid, God is with me and has seen fit to bring this down my path as well.
Also, when I talked to another individual about serving he mentioned that I was really asking God for a man to help. This also has been proven to me that this is something God wants me to do. AND I might already know who it is. I am "bathing" the man and his wife in prayer and waiting to see how God leads me in this.
Shoot, I right this out and there is a TON more work that God has been doing in my life than I have even realized.... wow, just wow.......
Bible reading..... Praise God I am at a continued 4 plus months. To Him is the praise and glory for this one. I have missed a day or two here and there, but I can tell you this. I know when I have missed it, the day is just terrible. Praying? Not where I would like it to be, but God is working in this as well.
Final thoughts.......
I have (it looks like) four followers..... So I am presenting a question to you and anyone else who may read this. "Laying out a fleece" as Gideon did.... We as followers of God can still ask of this no? I have a question in my mind of a certian direction that I think God may want me to go, but I do not want to make the decission if it is a fleshly one. I have asked God for a "supernatural" occurence. I do not believe it is wrong but am asking your thought on this. I have requested of God the answer through two certian avenues by the end of the week. Is this wrong?
Laterz.....
I will be honest here, I am a sinner just like everyone else. What makes me different is that I am saved by the grace of God through the crucifiction, death, burial, and ressurection of Jesus Christ. The acceptance of that it was all for me is the "hope of my salvation". I have not attained anything..... yet. That is a future goal.
I am once again looking forward to church. I am enjoying being involved with RU (Reformers Unanimous) more and more. I dread having to go to the work place because there is no spiritual "safety" there. BUT God has control and right now He sees fit for me to be here. I have stumbled in my testimony because of my unruly flesh, but that is okay. God knows and is helping me.
Today was an interesting thought that He brought to my mind. I have heard that being timid or an introvert is a type of pride. Would not accept it till I realised what went through my mind in this area. I would not approach others but would get upset when they did not approach me..... in that I see the pride of thinking myself worthy of being approached but them unworthy of my approaching them. Disguised under the premiss of being "shy". Do I like groups of people I do not know? Do I like talking to people? The answer to these is really the same... not really. However, I do not like being "alone" or "left out". It is sad that we can take a "bad experience" in our past and let it affect us for so long. It only hurt me truthfully. This is one area that God has decided to work on in multiple ways and I am so greatful to Him for giving me the strenght and help I need..... DAILY.
Also, I have had a feeling that God has wanted me to step up my growth and start serving Him. Right off I thought of the bus ministry again, but had no peace about it. I asked God for direction and talked to my pastor. I am now serving as a greeter for RU.... talk about instantly out of my comfort zone!! But I have purposed in my heart to serve Him and He has been faithful to give me the confidence to do it. He has also seen fit to have me approached about my favorite principle...... I know where this heads but I am not afraid, God is with me and has seen fit to bring this down my path as well.
Also, when I talked to another individual about serving he mentioned that I was really asking God for a man to help. This also has been proven to me that this is something God wants me to do. AND I might already know who it is. I am "bathing" the man and his wife in prayer and waiting to see how God leads me in this.
Shoot, I right this out and there is a TON more work that God has been doing in my life than I have even realized.... wow, just wow.......
Bible reading..... Praise God I am at a continued 4 plus months. To Him is the praise and glory for this one. I have missed a day or two here and there, but I can tell you this. I know when I have missed it, the day is just terrible. Praying? Not where I would like it to be, but God is working in this as well.
Final thoughts.......
I have (it looks like) four followers..... So I am presenting a question to you and anyone else who may read this. "Laying out a fleece" as Gideon did.... We as followers of God can still ask of this no? I have a question in my mind of a certian direction that I think God may want me to go, but I do not want to make the decission if it is a fleshly one. I have asked God for a "supernatural" occurence. I do not believe it is wrong but am asking your thought on this. I have requested of God the answer through two certian avenues by the end of the week. Is this wrong?
Laterz.....
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