Who shall stand?
Psalm 130: 3-5
alright, here we go. This weekend was pretty good. Sunday however became a struggle for me. Completely my fault though. I will not go into details about what happened. Sometimes the things of life do not need to be broadcasted.
Sunday morning service was great. The Lord used guest speaker Luke Bishop to show me a couple things from His word that I had missed. To be honest, I wonder sometimes why it is I seem to miss so many things that afterwards I am like, "That was so obvious!" Anyways... as the day progressed things did not stay so great.
Sunday night was a struggle for me to keep focused on God's word and the preaching because of my self loathing. However, I did get more feeding from God's Word. We are in the midest of VBT and starting off the second and final week with Teen VBT. I do not do much more during VBT than count pennies. Anyways, a comment was made that caused me some struggle. I do not know why really, but it did. The comment had to do with after being saved, God does not notice or recognize our sinning. I know that when Christ died, He died for my past, present, and future sins. But for some reason I "knew" He saw my sins and was disappointed with me. I mean, that is how I felt. He must too.... right?
Monday morning now. I read my Bible and nothing really popped out as an answer. I had asked God last night to show me His truth on the matter. Then, while driving to work I normally pray the whole way..... almost. This morning however I was deep in thought about this question I had. I will say know that I am greatful for a church that loves to sing scripture songs. Because God brought this particular scritpure song to my mind. There was the answer. I know it was from him because it is not one, that to my knowledge, has been sung very recently.
"If thou, Lord, shouldest mark iniquities, O Lord, who shall stand? (Psalm 130:3)" There it is. IF.... exactly..... if!! He has promised us that he will cast our sins and the rememberence of them as far as the East is from the West! He does not remember them. And since He died for past, present and future sins..... they have been cast away too!! Man am I slow.... Anyways, My mind got onto the thoughts of well then why do i feel so bad after sinning? Simple really now that I have thought about it. Once saved, our spirit is brought to life and fellowship with the Holy Spirit. When we sin we go against what our spirit knows to be right and this causes us to feel "bad". God has told us already what is right or wrong. The conviction about the sin comes from the fact that our spirit "tells" our mind "you just messed up". I am not sure I am really expressing this right, but this seems to be the answer. God does not convict me of my sin anymore, He has FORGOTTEN about them ALL!. The conviction has to come from somewhere... I believe it is the knowledge given to my spirit through the teaching from God's word and the fellowship my spirit has with the Holy Spirit living in me.
So then who is it that beats me up about sinning? Who is it that tells me I have failed again? Who is it that continues to bring my failures to me and tells me I can accomplish nothing or do nothing right? Well, only two "people" really. Myself and satan. God does not remember them, so it cannot be Him. What does He do? Here is the great part... "But there is forgiveness with thee, that thou mayest be feared. (Psalm 130:4)"
He forgave.... That's it.... He forgave... When? At the cross. Remember? His word says that He will remember them no more, so when we do sin, the guilt comes from our spirit knowing we have done wrong. The devil and our own mind tell us that we have failed and can accomplish nothing. Our own mind tells us that we must not be saved because we continue to do wrong. That is NOT what God teaches. I will be honest here, I have yet to completely grasp the fear of the Lord part. But I think I am slowly starting to get it. If He did not forget our sins, just imagine what He as a soverign God could do to us. And He would have every right to. But He chose to Forgive and forget forever.
"I wait for the Lord, my soul doeth wait, and in His word do I hope. (Psalm 130:5)" "... In his word do I hope." This is not meaning the same as we look at the Word hope today. Today the word hope means more like "there is a chance it could possibly happen but I am not sure." Biblically, it means My security is in the Word of God and that He will uphold what He has said no questions asked. It is a deffinete there is no question.
I am still in awe about this. I mean, for so long I have looked at it as God sees my sins even though they are forgiven. That thought is not even close to being scriptural. He sees nothing but the blood of Christ. NOTHING but the blood. No sins.... no mistakes (sins).... no failures (sins). WOW!!! This might be the beginning of my understanding the fear of God.....
So what then is the "correction" we get from God? Well, I got to thinking about that. Let's look at a child. We tell them to not touch the stove because it will burn them. We warn them, we may slap there hand to protect them from harm. But eventually they either learn from our "correcting" or.... well, they get burned and learn the hard way. Results? If they had listened to the parent, no scar's or pain. Do it there way.... possible scar's and deffinite pain. I think spiritually it is the same way. God corrects us through His Word and the teaching from the pulpit about serving Him and following after Him. We still have the choice and to many times we "touch the stove". Why? because we think we know better then everyone else. So as a parent what do you do after the child has touched the stove? Do you spank them? Do you scold them and punish them for doing wrong? Of course not, you comfort them and make sure they are okay. You then (if they are old enough) explain to them that the burn they just got is what you were trying to protect them from. How much more does our heavenly father want to do the same for us. He "let's" us go our way, and once we come to the realization that He was right all along (touch the stove), then He comforts us and loves us more than we could ever comfort and love our own children. He is the Father of fathers, if we would not discipline our child after they hurt themselves doing something that we told them not too, how can we think that God would. The pain and scar's are teachers enough. There is no need to add to it, the pain of disobeying has been the teacher in this case.
Something to reflect on. Do not be afraid to comment if you feel the need.
Laterz...
alright, here we go. This weekend was pretty good. Sunday however became a struggle for me. Completely my fault though. I will not go into details about what happened. Sometimes the things of life do not need to be broadcasted.
Sunday morning service was great. The Lord used guest speaker Luke Bishop to show me a couple things from His word that I had missed. To be honest, I wonder sometimes why it is I seem to miss so many things that afterwards I am like, "That was so obvious!" Anyways... as the day progressed things did not stay so great.
Sunday night was a struggle for me to keep focused on God's word and the preaching because of my self loathing. However, I did get more feeding from God's Word. We are in the midest of VBT and starting off the second and final week with Teen VBT. I do not do much more during VBT than count pennies. Anyways, a comment was made that caused me some struggle. I do not know why really, but it did. The comment had to do with after being saved, God does not notice or recognize our sinning. I know that when Christ died, He died for my past, present, and future sins. But for some reason I "knew" He saw my sins and was disappointed with me. I mean, that is how I felt. He must too.... right?
Monday morning now. I read my Bible and nothing really popped out as an answer. I had asked God last night to show me His truth on the matter. Then, while driving to work I normally pray the whole way..... almost. This morning however I was deep in thought about this question I had. I will say know that I am greatful for a church that loves to sing scripture songs. Because God brought this particular scritpure song to my mind. There was the answer. I know it was from him because it is not one, that to my knowledge, has been sung very recently.
"If thou, Lord, shouldest mark iniquities, O Lord, who shall stand? (Psalm 130:3)" There it is. IF.... exactly..... if!! He has promised us that he will cast our sins and the rememberence of them as far as the East is from the West! He does not remember them. And since He died for past, present and future sins..... they have been cast away too!! Man am I slow.... Anyways, My mind got onto the thoughts of well then why do i feel so bad after sinning? Simple really now that I have thought about it. Once saved, our spirit is brought to life and fellowship with the Holy Spirit. When we sin we go against what our spirit knows to be right and this causes us to feel "bad". God has told us already what is right or wrong. The conviction about the sin comes from the fact that our spirit "tells" our mind "you just messed up". I am not sure I am really expressing this right, but this seems to be the answer. God does not convict me of my sin anymore, He has FORGOTTEN about them ALL!. The conviction has to come from somewhere... I believe it is the knowledge given to my spirit through the teaching from God's word and the fellowship my spirit has with the Holy Spirit living in me.
So then who is it that beats me up about sinning? Who is it that tells me I have failed again? Who is it that continues to bring my failures to me and tells me I can accomplish nothing or do nothing right? Well, only two "people" really. Myself and satan. God does not remember them, so it cannot be Him. What does He do? Here is the great part... "But there is forgiveness with thee, that thou mayest be feared. (Psalm 130:4)"
He forgave.... That's it.... He forgave... When? At the cross. Remember? His word says that He will remember them no more, so when we do sin, the guilt comes from our spirit knowing we have done wrong. The devil and our own mind tell us that we have failed and can accomplish nothing. Our own mind tells us that we must not be saved because we continue to do wrong. That is NOT what God teaches. I will be honest here, I have yet to completely grasp the fear of the Lord part. But I think I am slowly starting to get it. If He did not forget our sins, just imagine what He as a soverign God could do to us. And He would have every right to. But He chose to Forgive and forget forever.
"I wait for the Lord, my soul doeth wait, and in His word do I hope. (Psalm 130:5)" "... In his word do I hope." This is not meaning the same as we look at the Word hope today. Today the word hope means more like "there is a chance it could possibly happen but I am not sure." Biblically, it means My security is in the Word of God and that He will uphold what He has said no questions asked. It is a deffinete there is no question.
I am still in awe about this. I mean, for so long I have looked at it as God sees my sins even though they are forgiven. That thought is not even close to being scriptural. He sees nothing but the blood of Christ. NOTHING but the blood. No sins.... no mistakes (sins).... no failures (sins). WOW!!! This might be the beginning of my understanding the fear of God.....
So what then is the "correction" we get from God? Well, I got to thinking about that. Let's look at a child. We tell them to not touch the stove because it will burn them. We warn them, we may slap there hand to protect them from harm. But eventually they either learn from our "correcting" or.... well, they get burned and learn the hard way. Results? If they had listened to the parent, no scar's or pain. Do it there way.... possible scar's and deffinite pain. I think spiritually it is the same way. God corrects us through His Word and the teaching from the pulpit about serving Him and following after Him. We still have the choice and to many times we "touch the stove". Why? because we think we know better then everyone else. So as a parent what do you do after the child has touched the stove? Do you spank them? Do you scold them and punish them for doing wrong? Of course not, you comfort them and make sure they are okay. You then (if they are old enough) explain to them that the burn they just got is what you were trying to protect them from. How much more does our heavenly father want to do the same for us. He "let's" us go our way, and once we come to the realization that He was right all along (touch the stove), then He comforts us and loves us more than we could ever comfort and love our own children. He is the Father of fathers, if we would not discipline our child after they hurt themselves doing something that we told them not too, how can we think that God would. The pain and scar's are teachers enough. There is no need to add to it, the pain of disobeying has been the teacher in this case.
Something to reflect on. Do not be afraid to comment if you feel the need.
Laterz...
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