Thoughts and Reflections

Ugh, it has been forever since I posted anything. Looking at all the previous posts that are here, you can see that I was going for a spiritually driven thoughts and comments...... for the most part. That being said, I read earlier posts and cannot believe some of the things said. Good or bad, it just does not seem to be "my kind of thinking". And yet everything stated here has been from the heart. So let me be clear, I am no spiritual giant. I struggle with sins in my life just like everyone else. To be honest, I have allowed my focus recently to be on the "problems" in my life and not on the solution to it, that was finished almost 2000 years ago on the cross. We constantly hear or are told of people who ask if God is all loving, why does He allow so many bad things to happen? The more I look at it, the more I realize that people really do not know. I mean, I am one of the fortunate ones to be born into a family that had me in church often. I have heard the wo...

Ya know, sometimes I think I’m afraid of coming to events where I know God is going to show up because of what He is going to do in my heart through the preaching. Once again He has shown his love for me and had the very first sermons pointed right at me. Tony Shirley started the night off with a sermon titled “In the Valley”. The Whole thought process started the focus on the fact that the world watches us all the time, but especially when we are in the valley. They are truly looking to see if we really believe in what we say. Not only that, they are many times honestly looking for the answer to their troubles. He continued on and focused on the fact that we need to not only show up in the valley, but to stand strong. It is not going to be easy for sure, but we are not alone. Many times God has us there for two reasons. One is to show Himself and His power to the world and to magnify the strength we have through Him. Other times he just wants to show Himself strong to us. Oh ho...

  A new device for a new year.   So I am going to play with it and attempt to “blog” what I get from it. I can already thank the Lord for a great trip down to the camp from Fairbanks. The roads were good all the way and the company was good. I even managed to grab a nap on the way. I am now in my room and it looks like I am part of the crew that will “babysit” the boys who do not have a father with them this year. That actually works out fine for me because I want them young men to see me as approachable and someone they can talk to if needed.   To be honest I am hoping that God can show me some more direction for my life. I look t where I am now and I truly do try to accept what God has for me now and being content with it. It is hard for me because I want to serve Him in every way that I can. Sometimes I think that I am working at Fort Knox getting experience in the computer industry because God wants to use that knowledge for His glory in full time s...

So February has pretty much come and gone. Figured i should do an update of some sort. Life has been continuing on and God is still showing himself strong. There are times where I struggle in my faith, because I have the faith as a grain of mustard seed (or Less). But it is a constant growing process. I have already seen Him work in some areas that I was really having a hard time facing and He took care of it all. Things may not be "perfect" by human ideas, but they are what God has at this time. I am thankful for the judgements He has given me. Lets see.... Bus route is going great. I have a constant average around 10. This is by no means because of my doing, but because of God's grace. I have been given the privilege to fill in for a Sunday school class twice. Again, I am grateful that God decided to use this stammering tongue of mine. And in RU, I am seeing God make changes in my life and am so glad He is. Speaking of the changes, you know when you are the one th...

Well, two weeks ago God blessed my family with our fourth child. Isabella was born healthy. the answer to prayer was that there were no issues with her kidneys. The second miracle was that the knot in the umbilical cord that no one saw never tightened or caused any damage. GOD IS SO GOOD!! we were allowed to take her home a couple days later even though her jaundice level was iffy. The next day we had to go to the doctors for a check up and the level was now "critical". They once again let us take her home with a biliblanket. This was with the understanding that if her levels and weight did not improve, she was going back to the hospital. Sarah and I immediately sent out messages for prayer and left it in Gods hands the best we could. The next day we went back. PRAISE THE LORD!! Her weight increased by half a pound in one day and her jaundice levels were well below what they were when she was born. The doctor was amazed, but after we said well we have a lot of prayers goin...

Been a little while since I last posted. I had a tough road a couple weeks back where trusting in God and what He was doing in my life was hard to take. I purposed in my heart and prayed that God would see me through it all. I then reminded myself constantly that He was in control and I even quoted parts of scripture that I could remember that did deal with the situation I found myself in. I cannot say that the time was easy after prayer and meditating on scripture, not by any means. I am still human and in the flesh, so therefore still struggle with overcoming it. I can now say that God saw us through and although things are not perfect, I know He can handle it all. Then this past week I had an event again that went against what my flesh liked. I of course started down the road of a "bad attitude". Shortly after heading that way, I realized my error. Honestly, what was the big deal? I had to do something I did not like because that is what was wanted of me. Who am I to re...