2016
Hey, How's it going. Yeah I am still here.
To be honest, I do not know what to write. You see, life has taken an unexpected turn. My plans for the past few months were vanquished. My dreams and plans for the near future have been "rewritten".
I am becoming "okay" with it though. God is working and has a plan. He loved me and those involved more than I will ever understand. I see His hand moving in my life and others. Do I see all that He is doing in me and for me? No, but He is moving. I was looking back at some previous postings and saw things that I wrote that I did not understand the true impact of what is there. Many times God has used a sermon that I heard before to teach me a "new" truth. It is new to me because I was not ready to see it the first time. Looks like He has done that with my own writing.
I find myself in a place where I have had to learn to fully trust God. It is a large task for me. Trust is a very week area in my life. But God is faithful to answer our prayers and meet our needs. He does it in His way and not ours. Sometimes I forget that. There have been many times where I cried out to God to work in an area of my life that I knew was out of control. Areas that I knew were drawn to sinful desires and actions. Sin has a way of moving through your life in ways that you would never imagine possible. It is very true that it will take you farther than you want to go. Keep you longer than you want to stay. Destroy more than you could ever imagine. Only God can repair.
I thank God for His faithfulness to me. He has become a closer friend to me in the time that I need Him the most. I have a strength to face the challenges before me because He has placed it there. I daily struggle as every human being does, but I am resting in His promises to me. The one I hold onto the most? "I will never leave you nor forsake you". If it was not for this promise, who knows where I would be today.
I thank God for the work He is doing in my life. It has been hard for others to approach me in conversation, friendship, or what have you because of a "hardness" that I portrayed. Thank God he has been working on that. I did not truly understand why it was difficult for me to reach out to others or for them to reach out to me. Now I see it and am grateful that God has been working. Mistakes are made yes, but the humbling of oneself to God and asking for help and forgiveness of a sin can and will correct so many things in your life. God is doing that with me. Relationships can be repaired. Friendships can be made. I can now be used to truly help others. Why? Because of the great person that I have "become"? No!! Because of the great God that He is!! I still face struggles every day. I still face a deep dark valley that He has seen fit to allow me to be taken through. Because He does not love me? Because He wants to cause me hurt and pain? NOT ON YOUR LIFE!! He has allowed it because He LOVES ME!! He saw the sins in my life. He heard my crying out to Him for help, direction, and growth. His love said okay. His love said I will do as you ask. He said to me.... "Do you trust me to do what best? Will you let me work in my way and in my time?" I have struggled with the saying "yes". God is faithful and waited for me to let Him work.
This lump of clay sits in the center of His wheel. This lump of clay is trusting in the potters hand. Yeah, there have been some very hard times. There have been nights of crying out in pain and suffering. There have been times of wanting God to stop.... and yet hoping He does not. There has been a lot that I would wish had never come to be, but God is faithful.
I am no longer the man I was. I am not longer the man I did not want to be. God is working on me and through me in ways I could have never imagined. He has shown me that He is with me and hears my prayers more than any other time in my life. Why? Because I am fully trusting Him and letting Him work. I am not yet the man of God I want to be. I am not yet the husband and father He desires me to be. But I am closer to being that man today than I was yesterday. And by Gods grace and working I will be closer tomorrow than I am today.
Patience is hard. But the rewards are great. God IS all powerful and working. You can trust Him. I am learning that. We need to stop bargaining with God and let him do what He knows is best for us. Work with Him. He points out the things in your life that need to change. As a magician uses slight of hand, God will change multiple things in the background while you focus on the sin, desire, or what have you that He wants you to confess and surrender to Him.
GOD IS WORKING!!!!!
To be honest, I do not know what to write. You see, life has taken an unexpected turn. My plans for the past few months were vanquished. My dreams and plans for the near future have been "rewritten".
I am becoming "okay" with it though. God is working and has a plan. He loved me and those involved more than I will ever understand. I see His hand moving in my life and others. Do I see all that He is doing in me and for me? No, but He is moving. I was looking back at some previous postings and saw things that I wrote that I did not understand the true impact of what is there. Many times God has used a sermon that I heard before to teach me a "new" truth. It is new to me because I was not ready to see it the first time. Looks like He has done that with my own writing.
I find myself in a place where I have had to learn to fully trust God. It is a large task for me. Trust is a very week area in my life. But God is faithful to answer our prayers and meet our needs. He does it in His way and not ours. Sometimes I forget that. There have been many times where I cried out to God to work in an area of my life that I knew was out of control. Areas that I knew were drawn to sinful desires and actions. Sin has a way of moving through your life in ways that you would never imagine possible. It is very true that it will take you farther than you want to go. Keep you longer than you want to stay. Destroy more than you could ever imagine. Only God can repair.
I thank God for His faithfulness to me. He has become a closer friend to me in the time that I need Him the most. I have a strength to face the challenges before me because He has placed it there. I daily struggle as every human being does, but I am resting in His promises to me. The one I hold onto the most? "I will never leave you nor forsake you". If it was not for this promise, who knows where I would be today.
I thank God for the work He is doing in my life. It has been hard for others to approach me in conversation, friendship, or what have you because of a "hardness" that I portrayed. Thank God he has been working on that. I did not truly understand why it was difficult for me to reach out to others or for them to reach out to me. Now I see it and am grateful that God has been working. Mistakes are made yes, but the humbling of oneself to God and asking for help and forgiveness of a sin can and will correct so many things in your life. God is doing that with me. Relationships can be repaired. Friendships can be made. I can now be used to truly help others. Why? Because of the great person that I have "become"? No!! Because of the great God that He is!! I still face struggles every day. I still face a deep dark valley that He has seen fit to allow me to be taken through. Because He does not love me? Because He wants to cause me hurt and pain? NOT ON YOUR LIFE!! He has allowed it because He LOVES ME!! He saw the sins in my life. He heard my crying out to Him for help, direction, and growth. His love said okay. His love said I will do as you ask. He said to me.... "Do you trust me to do what best? Will you let me work in my way and in my time?" I have struggled with the saying "yes". God is faithful and waited for me to let Him work.
This lump of clay sits in the center of His wheel. This lump of clay is trusting in the potters hand. Yeah, there have been some very hard times. There have been nights of crying out in pain and suffering. There have been times of wanting God to stop.... and yet hoping He does not. There has been a lot that I would wish had never come to be, but God is faithful.
I am no longer the man I was. I am not longer the man I did not want to be. God is working on me and through me in ways I could have never imagined. He has shown me that He is with me and hears my prayers more than any other time in my life. Why? Because I am fully trusting Him and letting Him work. I am not yet the man of God I want to be. I am not yet the husband and father He desires me to be. But I am closer to being that man today than I was yesterday. And by Gods grace and working I will be closer tomorrow than I am today.
Patience is hard. But the rewards are great. God IS all powerful and working. You can trust Him. I am learning that. We need to stop bargaining with God and let him do what He knows is best for us. Work with Him. He points out the things in your life that need to change. As a magician uses slight of hand, God will change multiple things in the background while you focus on the sin, desire, or what have you that He wants you to confess and surrender to Him.
GOD IS WORKING!!!!!
Jesus loves even... thee!
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