Thoughts and Reflections

So this morning while praying, I said something that God pointed out to me as being the wrong thought process..... Successful service... What is successful service? To often I think we compare the "success" we are having in our service to God with others around us. Sure we may seem to be more "successful" than others and less "successful" then others depending on who we compare ourselves too. For example, I used to run a bus route. For too long I looked at my route and what I was accomplishing as a failure because I was not bringing in the numbers so many other routes were. I looked at my being a leader of the route as a failure because I was not being the Godly example I should have been for my fellow workers. Here in lays the error of that thinking. God has called us to serve. He did not call us to have a certian number to be concidered successful, He just asked us to serve in some area. This I think gets missed by so many people. I know that I for...

Psalm 130: 3-5 alright, here we go. This weekend was pretty good. Sunday however became a struggle for me. Completely my fault though. I will not go into details about what happened. Sometimes the things of life do not need to be broadcasted. Sunday morning service was great. The Lord used guest speaker Luke Bishop to show me a couple things from His word that I had missed. To be honest, I wonder sometimes why it is I seem to miss so many things that afterwards I am like, "That was so obvious!" Anyways... as the day progressed things did not stay so great. Sunday night was a struggle for me to keep focused on God's word and the preaching because of my self loathing. However, I did get more feeding from God's Word. We are in the midest of VBT and starting off the second and final week with Teen VBT. I do not do much more during VBT than count pennies. Anyways, a comment was made that caused me some struggle. I do not know why really, but it did. The comment had t...

So, what has been happening since camps ended. The constant battle of life mostly. I have had my ups and down like all people do, but unlike to many out there I have God on my side to see me through it all. "Surprise" God decided to bless Sarah and I with another child. Honestly, I do not feel worthy of God giving us another child to raise, but I am trusting God to lead me in raising not only this new blessing but the three that he has already given me. It's funny how I had this feeling even before Sarah told me she was pregnant that we were going to be having another child. I thank God still for the undeserved blessings He keeps lavishing on me. We are still "homeless".... So to speak. I believe God has done this on purpose. I believe that He is working on two different families directions in life and is answering two prayers with the same answer. My parents are going back to Fiji to serve our Saviour as missionaries to the souls over there again. During thi...

Wow...... July is almost gone already. So what has been going on? Not a whole lot and yet a ton. I will attempt to collect my thoughts and then do a true update momentarily. Laterz....

Well, Been a while I know. But I have been busy with work and other things. Here is a run-down to get you caught up. In May/June we decided it was time to move out of our rental and find a new place to live. We notified the landlord and they then decided to notify us that they were wanting us to move out. Not sure how they figured that was going to change anything...... but anyways. We spent a couple of Saturdays having a yard sale trying to sell off a lot of our collected "junk". God blessed this in some reguards. Made some cash from selling things. Of course it was not as much as I would have liked and I still have some high end items that I want to get rid of. Oh well, we can still have some. So, my parents went to Fiji for a month to visit the church that God allowed them the blessing of starting and to see if God wants them back on the mission field in Fiji. Because of this I am not "homeless". I am house sitting for them while they are gone. Of course we a...

Good Morning and Happy Wednesday....   I feel great today. What is God doing in my life???? Who knows? Not I (entirely),but I can rest in the fact that He knows exactly what he is doing. So I had sent out an e-mail to family from my new e-mail address that I am migrating to. If you did not get it and are reading this I am sorry. I do not have a current e-mail for you. If you want you can let me know what it is and I will gladly add you.   So here is the jst of what is going on. For a couple years now I have been running.... arguing with God about Bible College. This past Sunday I gave in. I surrendered to His will and said if He wants me there, I will go. The only "criteria" is that my pastor would have peace about me going. I believe that is exactly what God would have me do. Follow the guidence of Him and my spiritual leader. So, I have actually felt pretty good about the whole thing. In my mind I am like "well we are already having garage sales and selling st...

God is good. That is about all I can really say. It sums up a lot of what has been happening in my life these first four months of the new year. I cannot believe how much He can change you in this amount of time. I will be honest here, I am a sinner just like everyone else. What makes me different is that I am saved by the grace of God through the crucifiction, death, burial, and ressurection of Jesus Christ. The acceptance of that it was all for me is the "hope of my salvation". I have not attained anything..... yet. That is a future goal. I am once again looking forward to church. I am enjoying being involved with RU (Reformers Unanimous) more and more. I dread having to go to the work place because there is no spiritual "safety" there. BUT God has control and right now He sees fit for me to be here. I have stumbled in my testimony because of my unruly flesh, but that is okay. God knows and is helping me. Today was an interesting thought that He brought to my...